So I have been thinking a lot about the past and how I miss the things that I don't have in my life. My life changes so suddenly, and sometimes I wish everything would slow down so I could catch up. I feel like life is going on without me, and if I don't go out and take part that everyone and everything will move on without me. My greatest fear is being left behind, yet I'm frightened to take a risk. It hurts to much to open up when there are no guarantees.