It's interesting to look back on the last couple of weeks and realize that I'm doing okay. Life is pretty good and I have school, work, and an internship that keep me very busy! I look back on everything and to be honest I enjoy being busy and feeling productive. It feels good to know that I am making a difference in my own life and in so many other people's lives. I am blessed to have the ability to go to school and to work part time to control my expenses. All in all, my life is content and I have so much to be thankful for!

Birthday

Today has been really special and I am now one year older. I went to see Alice in Wonderland and had lots of cake and just lounged around enjoying the day. My life is so full and I can honestly say that things are great and I am extremely blessed. Thanks to all the wonderful people who have made my birthday grand!!

These last few weeks have been a huge change and this emotional experience has made me grow more than I have ever thought possible. My reliance on the Lord has been so great and I realized that I truly can't do anything without the help of my father. Life will always be filled with surprises and trials that I never see coming, but when I am able to put my trust in the Lord's hands, I can overcome anything! This is truly what the gospel is all about and knowing this gives me great faith and hope.

So I just sent an email to a really good friend on a mission that I haven't talked to in a year!!! I feel so giddy about it and I can't stop smiling. Life is just full of little moments like this and they help me to realize that things are good. I'm going to be okay with whatever the Lord has in store for me. Even though I hadn't planned for certain things to happen, I can move forward in my life knowing that it's all for the best and eventually I will get the things that I truly desire.

Yesterday I locked my keys in my trunk!!! Yeah first time I have ever done something as dumb as that. I took a friend to the grocery store and was helping her take her groceries to her apartment. I set my keys in one of my grocery bags and then set them in my trunk. I slammed the trunk closed and then remembered my keys. Definitely not one of my smartest moments. But I claim insanity, because I have been sick and a little out of it...

The Looking Glass Self

Okay so a guy I work with commented on my unique personality and it was a pretty funny conversation! He looks at me with a sudden light bulb expression and says, "Wow, you are a very special girl..." My response was, "Like eat the paste special?!" Which he then quickly explained that he thought that I was a very cool girl that was the exception to every rule he could think of. With that he then went so far as to say that the guy I marry will be extremely lucky to have me, because I enjoyed guy things like video games, lord of the rings, blowing stuff up, and camping!!! I'm not going to lie this was an incredible boost to my self esteem and I can't help but hope that my husband will feel the same way about me. I just think of myself as normal old me, but it's nice to sometimes see how others see me. It's always a mind blowing experience because people seem to think that I'm some amazing person that has this great character...

So the year is slowly growing to a close and I wanted to dedicate a post to the old year. A lot has happened this last year. I fell in love with a great guy, finally figured out my future plans for my education, and found a bit of myself that was once forgotten. I have grown in so many ways and I thank my heavenly father for the blessings that I have received this year. It has been a year of many things including trials, but all of the maturing and realization has been worth the struggle and the many tears that were shed. All in all it has been a great year and I hope that 2010 is just as fantastic!!