So I have done nothing special with my academic career!! No study abroad programs, no living in another country, no learning another language, and my thought is what have I been flipping doing with my education! Yeah, so I have been taking classes, but where is the real hands-on experience that I have always wanted? I think I fail at life...

Happiness

So I have come to the realization that happiness really is a frame of mind! If I want to be happy I have to choose it. No one can change my mood for me, and if I sulk and end up being mad at my friends, it won't make me feel better. You would figure that I would have understood this a long time ago, but practice does make perfect... or at least better!!

Only A Fairy Tale??

So I've been thinking a lot about the difference between loving someone and needing them, and I have decided that they are very different in many ways. A lot of examples have come to mind, and after much thought, on the subject, I have to conclude that relationships aren't as simple as I once thought. For example, wanting to spend your life with someone involves considering what needs are best for them along with your own needs. This can be a very complex situation, one that usually involves putting the other person's needs before your own. This is where the love comes into play, because this selflessness can only come when you truly love that other person unconditionally and would give the world for them. With this idea in mind, I can't help but feel somewhat depressed, because I don't know of anyone who could love me that much. It seems almost naive to hope for that...

Today it rained!!!! I love the rain; how it smells fresh and how it cleanses the world. It was a beautiful sight to watch the rain come down and hit the road. It looked almost like it was rolling across the street. I just stood and felt the rain fall down and it was cool and refreshing.

I love watching Full Metal Alchemist, and I have to admit that watching it for a second time makes me realize just how much I missed the first time! I love Japanese Animation, and I love how nerdy it makes me sound.

So I have been thinking a lot about the past and how I miss the things that I don't have in my life. My life changes so suddenly, and sometimes I wish everything would slow down so I could catch up. I feel like life is going on without me, and if I don't go out and take part that everyone and everything will move on without me. My greatest fear is being left behind, yet I'm frightened to take a risk. It hurts to much to open up when there are no guarantees.

So today I happened to see two guys walking to campus, and they were both wearing white shorts... I don't know about you, but I kind of think that that is rather feminine. White shorts are a pretty stupid color to have in the first place, but if guys wear them I have to think that they are little, shall I say special? Even worse these two guys were obviously roommates, and they were talking about meeting up after class to go home for lunch. Is that a little to "together" for most guys?